Congratulations Kylie and Andy!

One of my dearest girlfriends Kylie just got engaged to her boy Andy

I'm so happy for her, but i'm also very pissed off

I want to get engaged, and plan a party that revolves around me in a white dress.

I want a three tiered cake with a minature me on top

Anyone want to get married?

no reason at all

I don't like myself, I never have and I probably never will,
I'm one of those people who complain for the sake of complaining.
I think I'm incredibly selfish
I think I'm incredibly shallow
I am a wanker, or will grow up to be one
A wanker in a fat chick with an afro suit.

Actually there is no reason why I dislike myself, I'm doing well at school, I have lovely friends, even work isn't that bad I just want to complain, because then at least i'm doing something

Unusual night I had this evening, wait now it's yesterday.
Went on second date
I had fun
you don't need to know more except 'Charlie and the Chocolate Factory' was great.

Actually life is great, i'm just too shallow to realise

Tomorrow is Deryns birthday, Sunday is Father's Day

Now I'm teary, Now i'm going to bed.

Yes so, um err.

I have just been on a date, with a boy, and it wasn't a horrific experience, it was actually quite nice and who knows there might even be a second date.

I don't know what else to say umm err

I hate being at a loss for words.

I use the word 'I' too much

it's just a letter but it means so much to me.

I think I better go to bed.

I just looked at the picture from the last entry and shite! my legs and feet are shocking.

I wonder if doctors do cosmetic amputations?

Things I have to say, I need lots of money, and I need to get laid and I need to dance and I need to sleep for about fifty years

I'm kind of stuck in this feeling of awkward melancholy, I'm not miserable nor am I angy, I'm just feeling very very awkward.

I better go, I have to go and create wounds for first aid students

I'm still stickin it to the man!

I'm still stickin it to the man!
Originally uploaded by kimberly.lives.

I'm a mutha fucking renegade!

You have to read this!

My brother's friend Daniel said something that was too true, that or I'm so high on antihistamines, that I find anything prolific.

I am cooking a real life Genuine Donna Hay recepie straight from the Sunday paper it has chorizo in it so I am very impressed with it already, I am so domestic, I am so the perfect package now why won't anybody love me?

Probably because I don't know how to love, loves love?

I'm slipping, world seems to be falling down around me, all I want to do is sleep.

Lense capped for life

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Originally uploaded by kimberly.lives.

Well I'll make a long story short but a trip to my G.P. led to a trip to an Optometrist which led to him saying 'Fuck girl, you need glasses!' ok he would of phrased a little more eloquently but the fact is, that my vision has gotten worse and so now instead of a girl who needs reading glasses I'm a girl who needs glasses to go to the ladies room, well what do you think? they cost me $280 of next months school fees but I just couldn't bear to put something ugly on my face, my face needs all the help it can get.

I wonder if I become a full time glasses wearer I'll become more attractive to people with librarian fetishes? I am fat with nasty hair and cheap clothing I so could be a librarian.

"I'll show you a catalogue grrrrr!"

Ode to the D

My Brother Deryn is in Town and have spent the weekend in a happier than usual state (no it's not drug related) I don't really say how much I truly love my brother, but he is the most caring, charming, funny person I know, he has been for the last year and a half my rock (I know a tad cliched) and has inspired me more than anyone else I know (you know that is alive right now) and I am so happy and glad to know that whatever I do in my life that my brother will always be there and I hope that I can do the same for him when I get a life. Deryn my beautiful brother, YOU ROCK and I am so proud to call you my brother and my friend

Help!

Sent via sms: I an stuck somewhere i can't leave with an evil tyrant, a.k.a Mother please help!

Another nail in the coffin

Life is too busy at the moment I have too much to do and not enough time to do it in, I have been knocked around with a mother-fucker of a cold and have major assignment and I have no idea what to do, I want to cry but I'm too tired even to do that, I want to go out and get smashed and dance the night away. I have taken up smoking again, it's wrong, but fuck I love tobacco, it's so cancer causing I feel like a rebel everytime I light up.

Speaking of which I think I might go have a cigarette.

I need.

I need something to break the monotony (movie?) but it has to be cheap or better yet free (sex?) and that doesnt require me to make an effort or physically exert myself (bad sex?) but still makes me feel better about myself (sniff glue?)

I need a life.

I'm pathetic: part 673

I'm in an internet cafe right now, I have just purchased myself a ticket for the movie "The sisterhood of the travelling pants" O'm hoping that it's a post period thing where I go crazy and lose all sense and taste and relish teen-chick-flicks, that or plain and simple I'm just a loser a plain and boring loser.

In the net cafe I'm in the boy i'm sitting next to is very hot not it has any re;evance to anything, it's just there are so few attractive men out there any more that any sightings should be cherished as they could be your very last vision of a hot boy, that or plain and simple I'm just trying to justify that I'm a pervert.

Yeah I know, but it's nice once in a while to pretend I'm normal

Last of the Mohicans... I mean exams

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Originally uploaded by kimberly.lives.

Today was my last day of school and the last of my exams for this semester, Yesterday was my assessment on recreating an animal in either face-painting or for theatre and of course because I am a former Drama bitch I selected theatre, it's supposed to be a chameleon, I don't know what to think of it, the photo was taken after my model smudged her lips so it's blurry on the lips

I like to bitch and moan don't I?

Exams are over, Life is over, I want to cry, I want to eat lots of cake and drink lots of tequila and be really self destructive. I really want to

I can sing a rainbow.

I can sing a rainbow.
Originally uploaded by kimberly.lives.

Today waiting for my bus, it always makes me gooey seeing a rainbow. Now off to work!

Guess what

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Originally uploaded by kimberly.lives.

Yesterday was an exam at school, we had to design and apply a 'high fashion' make-up inspired by an animal, that was suitable for the cover of 'Italian Vogue' so here is my make-up if you can guess what animal inspired my make-up you will win a million dollars, or my undying love.

I am very happy with the results though.

Now onto my next assignment, when does the pain stop?

Today I did a work experience at a fashion parade for a hair college, it was fun, even though it made feel entirely inadequate. But for some reason I maintain a standard that always deems me inadequate, and you know what? I don't mind, simply because being inadequate is quite easy to do. It probably stems from a fear of rejection, after all knowing you will be instantly rejected will help ease a fear of it right?

I'm far too self-analytical today, probably another side-effect of my nadequate feelings.

I have been on wheat binges ever since the weather cooling, I have been bitter, cold and gassy

Stupid minor wheat intolerance why couldn't wheat cause me to die? then I would avoid it, thus, avoiding being an irritable bitch.

Such is life.

Fuck, I'm prolific!

Bizarre Love Triangle

I have the pet shop boys "Bizarre love Triangle" on constant loop in my head, I just always have loved that song since forever and probably before then. But the last week has cemented it into my skull.

Weddings suck arse, ok I suck arse at weddings but one thing I know is I want to get married just so I can piss a lot of people off.

I want to dissappear for a while and take a holiday.

Strange men keep on staring at me on the street, some even walk up to me and say hello, I just want to know where people especially old ugly people get this confidence from? to approach a stranger and to expect a positive response is amazing and yet time and time again it happens, it must be because I am a fat chick, people must assume I have no self esteem and thus feel more confident with me, or I appear as a desperate slut to every man and his dog?

I now want to dissappear more and more.

Piniata's are the tool of the devil, you have been warned

Somebody runaway with me, we can become gypsies!

I'm tired

My Wedding

I haven't been online lately because I have been preoccupied with my wedding.

It's in a few hours, I'm nervous, I'm terrified

I have no idea what to do.

Have you met my younger brother?

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Originally uploaded by kimberly.lives.

Ok while deryn was visiting I practised some make-up on him but he looks pretty cool as an old man dontcha think?